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I didn’t sleep last night not because I had many papers to mark but I had a very strange weekend with lots of mixed feelings. In some senses it was a good weekend. I met my friends, we all went somewhere else to join another friend which I hadn’t visited her for a long time. But I was confused, punchy and my feelings were mixed up. I couldn’t find myself and started acting like a five year old boy. I acted like that to hide something else. I don’t know how to put this. I was asking myself why I should follow the others rules? What if I want to do something else in my life? What if I don’t want to be like others? Maybe I want to do something else with my time and achieve something totally different to things that other people want. I suffer and suffer when I want to do something else and the others don’t understand me. It is very difficult for me to explain myself as those things are inside me. I think each individual has freedom to decide what to do with his life. Some of us may make decisions having dangerous consequences and at the end costing our life. So there is no one to blame at the end as each person is responsible for his own decisions including me. I have made few important decisions in my life which they are not normal! I am not going to share these with you as they are top secret and very personal. I am aware of my decisions consequences. I realised that no other person can understand me and start saying things that hurt me. Let me put it this way, imagine you have decided to not drive a car because you have had a very bad experience and you prefer to use public transport. You know that driving has few advantages in you life and make it easier but you want to do something else. You want to try another life style and you want to prove yourself that you can do your jobs without having a car. Then one day your friends notice that you don’t drive a car. They start insisting and insisting to you to drive a car. They want it for you as they want the best for you but they are not you. They haven’t been in your position and they can not understand what you have had in the past. They insist and insist again and reach to the point where you mixed up and start asking yourself “Maybe I should drive a car again?”. Then you step forward, you buy a car and drive it. At this point your friends will leave you alone as you did it what they were thing is the best for you so there is nothing else to talk about. Then you now have your time and start thinking what happened to my plans and decisions. Here, you should be very lucky if you don’t crash again in the middle of your thoughts.

LOVE happens only once

Love is the best thing may happen in your life, it happens once and won’t repeat again ever! When time is worthless next to her, when you start counting her breaths, when you want nothing in her absence, when you wait and wait for her call and when you don’t want to leave when she is with you, that’s love. When you start to cry by looking in her eyes, that’s love. When you want to sleep forever next to her that is called love. So when you have these feelings, don’t let it to go, take it, stick to it ; because Love happens once in your life and doesn’t repeat. Love is the best thing may happen to you and don’t listen to the others. They are not in your shoe and they don’t feel what you feel. Close your eyes and follow your hearth because Love happens once in your life. If you leave it behind, one day you will regret it, no matter what you become or how much money you make. Take my advice and don’t let Love to go and learn the Power of Love.

I wish everyday was like today!

It is Valentine and I can see even in Kabul people are buying gifts and dining out. But should really be a specific day on our calendar reminding us Love and loving each other? Why we forget each other? Why we do don’t look after each other every day and then suddenly, over the night we send flowers to each other? Why every day is not a Valentine day? Maybe there will be no tomorrow to tell our loved ones how much we love them and how much we care about the. Maybe tomorrow is too late to tell them, maybe next Valentine is too late to tell them how much we are grateful knowing them, so don’t wait till Valentine. Think each day of your life is a Valentine day.

Sometimes late at night

I lie awake and watch her sleeping

She's lost in peaceful dreams

So I turn out the light and lay there in the dark

And the thought crosses my mind

If I never wake in the morning

Would she ever doubt the way I feel

About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes

Will she know how much I loved her

Did I try in every way to show her every day

That she's my only one

And if my time on earth were through

And she must face this world without me

Is the love I gave her in the past

Gonna be enough to last

If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved once in my life

Who never knew how much I loved them

Now I live with the regret

That my true feelings for them never were revealed

So I made a promise to myself

To say each day how much she means to me

And avoid that circumstance

Where there's no second chance to tell her how

I feelIf tomorrow never comes

Will she know how much I loved her

Did I try in every way to show her every day

That she's my only one

And if my time on earth were through

And she must face this world without me

Is the love I gave her in the past

Gonna be enough to last

If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love

Just what you're thinking of

If tomorrow never comes

Fight Global Warming!

From now on, everyday you will hear this term "Global Warming"; everyone will talk about it just you like when heard "Sadam" million times in the last four years every day, every minute, every second. It is real and it is happening right now and you will feel its effects on our daily life very soon, sooner than you think. What shall we do? Can we do something about it? Or it is out of our power? Well some of you may say: I am not a member of States and I can't do anything about it, my goverment should react earlier" and so on. But believe me You can do many things..You can help. Just tomorrow morning, when you go to your local grocery shop, take your plastic bag and don't ask for a new one...Every time you use used plastic bags for carrying your goods, You are helping in our fight against Global Warming! You can do it when you believe in it and your little help means alot...so don't forget to re-use your used plastic bags...please.

I Miss You Old Friend

I miss you, Old friend

Can I hold you?

And though it's been a long time,

Old friend

Do you mind?

There were so many things

I wish I had said

I meant to love you

But I hurt you instead

I've come here now

To make amends

Can I sit down beside you?

Can we be close again?

'cause I...miss you, Old friend

Can I hold you?

And though it's been a long time,

Old friend

Do you mind?

I'm hoping that you

Will feel this way too

'cause I miss you, Old friend

I miss you

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I'm hoping that you

Feel this way too

Something New!

Since my last post, all my good fellows asked me for Something New! I received millions of millions requests to tell Something New. Well, I started to think about Something New, I thought and thought and more thinking, suddenly I looked at my wonderful clock and it was 2:20 PM, I was so hungry and still I didn’t find something New, I gave up thinking about Something New as I couldn’t find it, so I decided to stop thinking about Something New and I left my computer for food!